The Hormones, the deBRAcle and changing my name

In this episode, I talk about the ways pregnancy and fertility treatment have changed not just my body, but my sense of identity, visibility, and how I move through the world as a non-binary person.

I open up about the intensity of fertility hormones and what it felt like to suddenly experience emotions, mood swings, and bodily changes in a way that genuinely reminded me of puberty for the first time. From hormone injections and progesterone pessaries to feeling hyper-aware of my body and how other people perceived me, this episode explores the complicated relationship between pregnancy, gender, and visibility.

I also share the unexpectedly emotional experience of trying to find bras that actually worked for my changing body after years of wearing binder-style bras, including a deeply uncomfortable trip to Primark that forced me to confront feelings I hadn’t fully unpacked before.

And finally, I talk about the decision to legally change my name before giving birth, why it mattered so much to me, how pregnancy made identity feel more public and official, and why I wanted to enter parenthood as the version of myself that truly felt right.

This episode is about identity, control, dysphoria, visibility, and learning how to stay connected to yourself while your body and the way the world sees you changes around you.